Month: November 2006

  • the core

    as exams approach, my focus becomes almost meditative.

    i’ve gone from drinking esspressos with milk (lattes) to esspressos with water (cafe americanos).

    that’s like going from a screwdriver to vodka on the rocks.

    i’m intensifying.

    i’ve gone from my study-music being american rock to mellow brazilian pop, to prevent myself from being distracted with words i understand.

    i sleep heavily and i’m not panicking…

    i’ve never felt like this before.

  • i miss…

    this photo consists of a few things i’m missing big time:  sharon, summertime, and the beach:

     

  • i like it rough.

    masochism

    i haven’t figured myself out yet, with this:

    i always, without fail, leave something pretty important down to the last minute to complete.

    now this could be a genius mind simply challenging itself because the rest of life is a piece of cake….or.

    i could be so fucking sick that i enjoy the drama, pain, 10 shots of espresso, desperation, fear of failure, etc.

    i really want to believe it’s the former…but i truly believe it’s the latter.

    i’m so fucked up.

    i have to produce a 7 page discussion on why some guy should or shouldn’t get away with being an emotional mess after an icey breakup via letter and shit in the hallway.

    it’s been entertaining reading the cases to support my argument…but i’d rather it all be over at this point.

     

    eh, 7 pages to go.

     

    more espresso….