June 17, 2006
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zen me ban?
so i have less than 2 weeks here, left, in beijing and i literally have absolutely nothing set up for myself at home. i’ve changed my mind, yet again, with my career path and am definitely starting over…starting july 10th (aww heleny’s birthday) and i have a month after that, of full day-time commitment to learning, before i can actually “begin” the career path in the getting-paid sense.
what am i going to do for a month? mooch off my parents? is that okay to do at 24 (soon to be 25) ? i don’t know. i’ve submitted numerous resumes i fully qualify for, to random part-time evening jobs but have heard nothing. i may have a friend who is willing to take me on for the summer at a retail place…which would be great…but wouldn’t i be putting him out? what’s to be done? zen me ban?
i feel like i’m fifteen all over again. nothing real to offer this world for the time being, aside from my charming smile and promise to do everything i’m asked.
i have a feeling i’m going to be mooching. i’m pretty sure i can secure a job after that and keep moving up…but if i were my parents, i’d be pretty tired of my daughter changing her mind a hundred million times before picking a career and then having to fund it because she blew all her money in beijing.
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i’d like to think this will all build character for me. and maybe my parents.
siiigh. almost time to come home and go to the beach….praise God.
Comments (4)
haha… i kinda kno wat your feeling.. but good luck with that and remember u coming to visit.. haha :p
hey lauren!no problem< i was really tired after dinner with my friends. I am leaving for Xi An tomorrow but I will be back on the 22nd or 23rd. So do you want to meet up on the 23rd? I will fly back to tokyo on the morning of the 24th.
Hey, don’t forget about the article in your last blog! It’s about finding happiness, not merely making money for the sake of making money. And like most things in life, you gotta try it before you know whether or not you’ll really like it. I’m sure your parents understand. Besides it’s your 20s, you’re supposed to be experimenting and building character now. Now is the time to be broke and have the best time of your life being broke.
As for mooching, my parents recently told me that they’d rather have me mooching while I make plans to pursue something instead of mooching just because I don’t want to do anything. As long as the mooching is only temporary, they’re ok with it. I’m sure Mama O’Malley will feel the same way.. yea?
I can’t believe you’re gonna be home soon! I can’t wait for my Strawberry Shortcake to come home! But I know you’ll be sad to leave Beijing. Okies.. I’m blabbing a ton. Love ya mamacita.
Hell yah we got to go to Nantasket!! haha