Month: June 2006

  • not ready at all…

    i’m definitely not ready to come home.  i’ve had one minor panick attack and all around sadness engulfing my being for the past 12 hrs.  i want to stay and enjoy my stress-free life here.


    i come home tomorrow night (thurs. night, my time difference powers are broken) and i’m a little sad.  i’ve drank too much alcohol to shed tears, but if i were sober, i’d be a cryin’.


    tomorrow at 12:30 pm is when i set off.  blegh.


    goodbye my sweet beijing.  you’re a second home to me and i love you and all your craziness.


    you’re my drama mama.


    -lauren


     


    (how this ended up being a letter to beijing, i’ll never know)

  • mo-he-tou

    i just had probably the best mojito i’ve ever had in my life.  in beijing.  go figure.  i even had a mojito in puerto rico and it wasn’t all that.


    it was so delicious i had three.  with dinner….


    = X

  • freaked out at accuracy

    of this survey’s depiction of myself.  pretty good.  try it out:


     


    Get to know yourself better



    Your view on yourself:

    Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They’ll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.

    The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

    You like serious, smart and determined people. You don’t judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren’t necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people’s eyes.

    Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

    You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

    The seriousness of your love:

    Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

    Your views on education

    Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

    The right job for you:

    You’re a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you’ll be set for life.

    How do you view success:

    You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don’t succeed. Don’t give up when you haven’t yet even started! Be courageous.

    What are you most afraid of:

    You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

    Who is your true self:

    You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

     

  • if you listened to crappy 90′s music…

    maybe you can offer out your services for a minute, or two:


    http://www.nanashairbraiding.com/about.htm


    (don’t ask why i was on this site in the first place, i just was = )


    is playing a song that I KNOW goes like this:


    “i need you, bla bla bla bla blaaaa blaaa


    i need you….i neeeed youu


    and it’s sung by a michael jacksony kind of boy-voice


    and i know it was sung in the early 90′s


    does ANYONE know this song?  i used to have it on my WinAmp back in the day…i’d like to re-download.


    oh sigh.


    help. i’m going crazy.

  • the toe

    okay so i’m skipping over “the cat” on my list of things to blog about (my only true documentation of thought while here in china) because it just wasn’t that memorable.  on to the toe.  Camel Toe, that is.


    god, i mean i wish i had photos of what i’m about to talk about.  it’s unfuckingbelievable what these women put their vaginas through, everyday.  it all goes down like this:


    i’m walking down the street and i look up to see (usually) a petite woman with her pants up at actual waist level (for those who are under 35, it’s in between your rib area and where you really wear your pants- hip bones) safely secured with a belt, to ensure no movement occurs that may result in a lower placement, preventing the severe Camel Toe they’re donning.


    and i cringe.  if you’re a man reading this, it’s like watching the guys walk around with the billy ray cyrus tight ass jeans…you just feel uncomfortable.  i cringe on behalf of all of the scrunched up and cleaved punani out here, in beijing.


    and you’d think it ends outside with the masochistic belt buckling at the rib cage to pull pants right up the middle….but it even occurs at the gym.


    i’m at the gym and i see this woman and her poor vagina walking around in exercise pants hiked all the way up there, ready for some chaffing cardio work on the treadmill, i’m sure.  and then i look around….and it’s everywhere.


    and it’s not like they have good reason to have the Camel Toe…and there ARE reasons:


    - you’re a rather large girl in spandex, for one reason or another.  fatty tissue dissipates where it will with spandex and it can’t always be helped.


    - you’ve gone down a waterslide.  i think it’s fair to say it can happen with both bikini wearers and bathing suit wearers, alike.


    - you’re wearing jeans that are just too damn tight.  hey, it happens.  and not always is it realized until it’s a day too late and you realize you’ve been Camel Toe’ing all over the place.


    and in all honesty…as soon as any of these circumstances arise, one would normally remedy them immediately.  nay, here in china.


    they embrace it.  these aren’t chubby girls in spandex rockin’ the Toe…they’re slim and sometimes skinny-beyond-belief women….and there are no waterslides here, so that excuse is out of the question….and with the tight jeans thing….these girls are slim, as mentioned, wearing loose-fitting jeans. 


    that rigid belt placement and their desire to suffocate one of the most sacred organs on a woman’s body is what’s doing it all and i can’t for the life of me, understand it: why.

  • it’s 96 degrees…

    and i’m having a hard time motivating myself to get out of my air conditioned apartment and started on my 20 minute walk to the gym to work out…


    as i type this, i look down at my two-month-pregnant-looking belly and am suddenly inspired.


     


    blegh.


     

  • boxers and bellies

    beijing summer heat is no joke.  it’s above whatever boston’s getting right now, sans the humidity.


    lots of ice cream, bottled water and beer is consume in this heat.  people also lighten the attire:


    some men choose to wear only boxers outside to relax in restaurants/beer gardens/the gym.  i mean, that wouldn’t fly anywhere in the states without questioning by the establishment’s staff.


    some men choose to roll their shirts up to expose their bellies.  i’d say stomachs, but i see mostly bellies around these parts of beijing = ) taxi drivers, dads, vendors, drunk old men….the list goes on.  men love showing the belly.  i’m sure it cools them down.  too bad women can’t do the same here.


    every time i see those bellies, i’m reminded of when i was a child in the summer.  whenever my brothers, my dad, and my friends who were boys got to wear nothing but the skin on their backs due to heat….i’d get insanely jealous because i couldn’t do the same. i had exactly what my boy counterparts had, at the age of five…there was no risk there.  sucks.

  • but in the meantime…

    i just watched the 1986 The Transformers: Movie (which takes place in “2005 AD”) and it was fucking awesome.


    the fact that you can buy that on DVD here for $2 USD is even more fucking awesome.


    it was absolutely fantastic and i’m committed to locating the soundtrack or at least buying all music still available by the artists, mainly a group by the name of Lion.


    my favorite character was Arcee because she was the only chick holding it down in the pink metal gear:



    edit:  okay so it was Dyno-Bots….but wouldn’t it have been so much funnier if it were Dyno-BOX?  muuhahaaaa.  i’m immature and perverse…i admit it. = )


    that is all.


     

  • don’t forget to write…

    about the following…



    1. summer bellies

    2. the cat

    3. camel toe

    4. beer gardens

    5. smitty

    6. summer nights

    7. world cup

    8. 10 years

    9. appreciated simplicty

    10. insomnia

  • zen me ban?

    so i have less than 2 weeks here, left, in beijing and i literally have absolutely nothing set up for myself at home.  i’ve changed my mind, yet again, with my career path and am definitely starting over…starting july 10th (aww heleny’s birthday) and i have a month after that, of full day-time commitment to learning, before i can actually “begin” the career path in the getting-paid sense.


    what am i going to do for a month?  mooch off my parents?  is that okay to do at 24 (soon to be 25) ?  i don’t know.  i’ve submitted numerous resumes i fully qualify for, to random part-time evening jobs but have heard nothing.  i may have a friend who is willing to take me on for the summer at a retail place…which would be great…but wouldn’t i be putting him out? what’s to be done? zen me ban?


    i feel like i’m fifteen all over again.  nothing real to offer this world for the time being, aside from my charming smile and promise to do everything i’m asked.


    i have a feeling i’m going to be mooching.  i’m pretty sure i can secure a job after that and keep moving up…but if i were my parents, i’d be pretty tired of my daughter changing her mind a hundred million times before picking a career and then having to fund it because she blew all her money in beijing.


    =)


    i’d like to think this will all build character for me.  and maybe my parents.


    siiigh.  almost time to come home and go to the beach….praise God.