May 24, 2006
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i can’t believe i talked too much.
i guess i am more in my own world, than i thought, when i don’t have guests visiting me.
i must not talk nearly as much becuase my voice is almost gone from talking so much for these past five days. simply amazing.
and, yet again, i realize how little mandarin i can speak. i always feel screwed when i think of how many people here have told me how well i speak and then i meet someone who will really break it down for me by telling me they can hear my american accent and respond to me with a lot of “What?! Why don’t you know that word?!”
why do they tell me i sound good when i suck? or maybe it’s all relative.
i maintain a humble mentality in the classroom and the minute i get out, i get slightly defensive when people try to school me….i need to kick that nasty habit of defensiveness because it just don’t fly when you’re learning.
time for some self-improvement.
Comments (1)
I don’t think they tell you that you’re good to be mean to you. I think they do believe you are good compared to what they had imagined you’re level to be at. So I agree, it’s all relative.
As for learning, oh gosh, I’ve been humbled more times than I can count. It sucks at first, but after a while you get used to it. What helps me is that I tell myself I’ll never be fully knowledgeable no matter how hard I try. There’s just too much information and not enough lifetimes to learn it all. It also makes learning more fun, cuz you always have something to look forward to.
Another thing that helps me, is that I look at cocky people and remind myself I don’t want to be them. Especially if I don’t think they have anything to be cocky about. Every person has knowledge they can impart on you. Be grateful that they’re taking the time out of their lives to enrich yours. Whatever you do with the information afterwards is your biz. =)
Keep learning mama. Self improvement is great!
Speaking of Starbucks, I’m sipping Green Tea Latte right now….